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when i was pregnant, steve and i were both really stressed about how we would manage financially once the baby came. we were both working tons -- at one point, between the two of us, we were juggling five jobs. i worked up until three days before jude was born, and i was so excited to be done, and just have time with my new baby.
it was great, but after a few months, i really struggled. i really missed the social outlet work gave me, as well as the structure and organization it provided. so when jude was about six months old, i decided i wanted to go back to work. i was lucky enough to have a super flexible job -- i could come in anytime i wanted between 8AM and 6PM, monday through saturday, as long as i got my required hours in. and i generally liked what i did (i was a judge for a children and teen's essay and poetry contest). so the first morning back, i woke up, nursed jude, handed him off to steve, and cried all the way to the office! it was so so hard. and to be honest, it never really got any easier.
my job didn't have work during the summer, and when they called me in the fall, i declined their offer to return. it was emotionally draining for the three of us (especially since the minute i got home, steve would have to leave for work, and not be home until 10PM). so i haven't been back to work since. i definitely miss the workplace, but for right now, all three of us feel like i should be home with jude. i've said it before, but i think the hardest part of parenthood for me is feeling productive. sometimes it's hard when you don't see the reward for all your hard work immediately, like you often do in the workplace.
so, what about you? did/do you work? is it hard to manage your time, and find a balance between work and parenthood? if you aren't working, do you miss it? or are you perfectly content as a stay at home parent? i'd love to hear your thoughts!
image above: tina fey, and daughter, alice via buzzfeed.com